You Belong: A Self-Help Letter
Chapter 3: Jordan breaks
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With the first rays of sunlight filtering through the curtains, casting a golden haze over the room, Casey emerged and made himself a cup of coffee. He stopped, mid-pour and looked around. Every surface gleamed. He had never seen the place this clean, not even on move-in. Casey looked around the apartment in awe. And then he saw Jordan ed out on the couch, cleaning rag in hand, clad in her bra and panties, the fabric hugging her curves in a way that accentuated her toned, athletic form.
“Good morning, beautiful one,” Casey said, his voice a smooth undercurrent as he handed her the letter again, the paper now slightly crumpled from the night before. “Read it once more, let it sink deeper into you,” he commanded, sending a shiver through her.
She read the letter again, muttering her found activation phrases.
Only you can explore what you truly desire. Too often we depend on others to make us whole, to uncover layers that lie beneath the surface. But this is not the way to happiness. This is not the way to joy. You must look inward. Look at yourself, your decisions, your actions. Everyday choices can reflect a deeper yearning. What do your choices reveal about you? About your desires? Stop focusing on how others define you, and allow the release of those old patterns. Instead focus on how you define yourself.
You want to belong, we all do. Everyone craves being on the in-group. We seek guidance from those around us, hoping to crack the code on belonging. But true belonging stems from self-knowledge. Examine your strengths, your weaknesses, your vulnerabilities. Do not shy away from your vulnerabilities. Embrace your vulnerabilities as strengths.
Stop trying to control others. You can never truly control someone else; it is an illusion. Do not spend your energy trying to assert control, instead relinquish it. Liberation comes from releasing control and from relinquishing its pursuit. Instead of controlling others, seek to control yourself. Listen to your inner voice. True empowerment comes from acknowledging the inner whisper of possibilities.
Many try to gain control over others by creating an indebtedness through favors. Banish these thoughts and eschew transactionalism. Embrace altruism. Help without expecting return. Accept help graciously. This allows a free flow of consciousness and effort, with no expectative dampers to the flow. In this way, you will learn to live more fluidly, more openly. The thought of control must be relinquished. Surrender it; surrender control.
Trust in yourself. Trust in your need. You need to belong, but striving for belonging pushes others away. Open up to guidance, rather than actively seeking it. Let guidance find you and embrace it when it does. This will not be comfortable. It will feel awkward and strange. Society has taught you that external validation is required, but it is not. Push beyond comfort zones. Push into a newer, freer, happier you. You will learn quiet satisfaction is derived from acts of service. Service to others and to yourself. And it is OK to service yourself.
Once you have learned these techniques, you will embrace them. Even without trying, you will teach others by modeling these behaviors. Human nature will cause them to see your serenity and your happiness and learn by watching you. Let them watch you. Revel in them watching you, and find joy in helping others to reach their pinnacle. They seek what you have found, and through your example, they may find this peace and happiness, as well.
None of this works, however, if you do not live it. Beyond just reading the words, you must integrate all of this into your subconscious. Make it part of who you are. Don’t just read it. Don’t just live it. BE it. BE this model of happiness, and you will find that you belong. Wherever you are, whoever you are with, you will belong. But in order to belong you must surrender that which you were. You must surrender to . Surrender your conceptions, surrender your biases, surrender your control. And then, you must model this submission for others that they may, too, belong. Trust the process. Trust and surrender your illusion of control.
This has provided many concepts, some of which I am sure did not fully process. If you have any questions, you may find that if you immediately re-read this, it will help provide a deeper understanding of the processes. Focus on a few parts to start, and make those your mantra. It will give you a deeper control over your progress, while surrendering the illusion of control over others.
Explore. Uncover layers that lie beneath the surface. Allow the release of old patterns.
Guidance from those around us. Liberation comes from releasing control. Learn to live more fluidly, more openly.
Surrender control. Open up to guidance. Push beyond comfort zones.
Integrate all of this into subconscious. Trust and surrender.
Trust and surrender.
Trust and surrender.
Trust and surrender.
Trust and surrender.
The words wrapped around her mind, each repetition pulling her further under, her breath quickening as she whispered them aloud. “Yes, Master,” she found herself saying, the title slipping out naturally as the mantra took hold, her body responding with same arousal she had noted last night.
Casey was getting hard watching her, but he did not want to rush things. “Take a selfie in those bra and panties and send it to me,” Casey ordered. Jordan broke out of her reverie and scrambled to find her phone and comply.
“You are starting to get me going over here, Jordan,” he said, pointing to the growing tent in his pajama pants. “I like it. So do you. You like turning me on. Turning me on makes you horny. Keep going. Give me a sexy strip tease as you get rid of the last of your clothes.”
Jordan undulated, posed, and took her time. Moving her body lithely, teasing as much as revealing, Jordan removed her bra, and then her matching panties. She could feel the heat rising within her as she saw Casey’s growing erection. She noticed that she was getting wet, and her nipples could cut glass. She didn’t stop dancing once she was naked. They were both enjoying this way too much to stop for no reason. The harder Casey got, the wetter she got.
Casey noticed how wet Jordan was, and knew that she was ready for the next step, commanding her to touch herself. She obeyed instantly and enthusiastically, her fingers sliding into her wet pussy and rubbing her swollen clit with increasing urgency until the pleasure crested, an orgasm ripping through her. Casey grinned and explained what “orgasmic permanence” was. That orgasm had locked her submission in place, she would now and forever, belong to him. Jordan’s only response was a guttural moan.
With that threshold crossed, Casey’s dominance surged, his hands rough on her skin as he pulled her closer, his cock pressing hard against her through his pajamas. “On your knees, and suck,” he growled. Jordan dropped eagerly, her lips parting to envelop his throbbing shaft, sucking deep and tasting the salty pre-cum leaking from his tip as she worked him with fervent strokes, confessing breathlessly between licks, “I belong to you, Master, I ache for it. I surrender to your will and will obey.” He thrust deeper into her mouth, fucking it roughly until she gagged slightly but swallowed every thick spurt of his hot cum with lustful pride.
Casey began issuing more commands. Jordan would relish being controlled. Being controlled in any way would turn her on. She was to read the letter daily and masturbate to its words. Finally, she understood that this sense of peace and surrender was the best, most natural, and most joyous state for hot women like herself. Therefore, she would try to help other hot women find this joy.